Life stuff.....

[yellowvalley]

Here is where I left to come back to Ohio to help my family out.  

I have always loved the sky and the stars and the constellations.  Sometimes I find myself wanting to pack all my stuff in my truck, say goodbye and good luck to my family, and drive back out there.

Sometimes I want to take my family with me.

I feel like I'm being stifled in Ohio right now.  I want to make a run for it so badly I feel like screaming sometimes.

I should have listened to my Grandfather when he was telling me before I came back that I got out, and I shouldn't come back even for a short period because I'd never get the chance to leave again.

He was just diagnosed with a terminal case of lung cancer, and he told me to go again, before it's too late.  How am I supposed to do that when my entire family depends on me?

Can I last two more years?  Until my nephews are done with school?  And after that?  I don't want to force them out on their own at 18, with no one to lean on, like I was.  And my Mom?  What will happen to her?