My Grandfather just died today.

[yellowvalley]

My Granddad just died today.  This morning around 8am.  He just gave up, didn't want to keep fighting when they didn't know exactly why he couldn't breathe.  After he beat lung cancer.  I knew it was coming, now I'm just worried about grandma.  We were in a similar position last month or so with her, but they put in a pacemaker, and she seems better than she has in years.  But they were both reaching 80 years old, and now she's alone.  She can't take care of a household like she used to, so she has to either move in with someone or go to a nursing home.

I saw my Grandpa in the hospital on Saturday.  He seemed alright, actually, but so so tired.  They had one of those breathing treatment masks on that push air into your lungs, trying to get them to clear out.  Yesterday, he took it off and threw it against the wall and told them no more.

My Mom is handling it the worst out of everyone.  Which I don't understand.  But whatever.

I'm so glad that the last time I saw him, when I left, I went back into the room after leaving and gave him a kiss on the forehead.  I honestly thought I was going to see him alive again, today actually, but I can't tell you how happy I was that I went back instead of just saying "bye, I'll see you Monday".

I feel weird.